(no subject)

[taleya]

Thanks guys,

I make a comment illustrating how fucking irrational I'm becoming due to a medication I'm planning on getting the fuck off once this next round is done, and essentially get a wave of support to fucking kill myself.

Really feeling the love right now.

Comments

[nicodeimus.livejournal.com]

Technically, it was a wave of support for you since none of us wanted to say "FUCK YOUR PAIN, BITCH." So, live or I'll stab you.

[jagwire.livejournal.com]

Forces of nature don't kill themselves. They kill other people while their friends in Brisbane cheer madly.

[synecdoche-and.livejournal.com]

The first time you expressed those thoughts in chat I begged you wouldn't talk like that, and got berated by you. So I decided to see it your way and not try to be condescending. I don't know what I'm supposed to say to express my support in a way that won't insult you.

I'm sorry. I don't want you to die, but I'm running out of things to say except, well, "please, please don't give up, ever."

[taleya.livejournal.com]

You were not berated. if I was going to berate you, believe me I would not have started with "sweetie" and said "You're not in my position so please don't say something like that to me again". I would have cheerfully and loudly invited you to fornicate yourself with something painful.

That circumstance was if this didn't work and it continued on in an endless cycle. It took my grandfather ten horrific years to die of cancer, I am not putting my family through that again. I am not at that point yet.

[synecdoche-and.livejournal.com]

"don't say something like that to me again"

So I didn't, and now I feel like I may have said the wrong thing anyway. I'm sorry, honey. I'm bad at finding words to express how I feel about you going through this, and I feel like whatever I say I'm just shooting myself in the foot. So just. Please, please get better.

[sdaemon.livejournal.com]

<3

I'm coming in late to this, but you're awesome. And I'm not just saying that cuz I want to leech your warez and pr0nz and empeethreez...

[cutebutpsycho99.livejournal.com]

I'll simply say this: I just support you and whatever decision you make.

[sevenjetc.livejournal.com]

Well, I just figured that you were just having a minor hormonal breakdown and won't stop fighting only because you are going around the house being a demon spawn.

[w-a-i-d.livejournal.com]

I think everyone was trying to be respectful of the fact that you know your own situation best. To try and talk you out of weighty decisions you make, or say you've made, about your own body, on the basis of far more information than we have, just isn't our place.

To reiterate, I hope like crazy you get better.

[twitchfetish.livejournal.com]

oooh....just saw this...Sorry, haven't read LJ in a couple days. Had to catch up :(

Anyway I said my piece.

Like Joe said - Forces of Nature don't die. Not without taking half the city with em anyway :P

*hugs*

T

[siamesegoth2.livejournal.com]

I've been putting my foot in it a lot this past few months, something I have been hoping to avoid.

I don't want you to go, that makes me selfish and that's fine by me. People like you don't go through all this without taking heads first, and you're not through with taking heads damn it.

I'm here, LJ AIM ( which will be on all the time now) Phone, I'll be here or I'll make damn sure I get right back to you, I may not be there physically ( you'd get sick of seeing me glued to your window) but I am here and i want to offer all the support I can and that you ask for.

[madscot.livejournal.com]

I haven't got a clue what to say. I can only repeat that I do give a shit whether you live or die. I was trying to say that I didn't want to make condescending "there, there" noises - that I am not walking in your shoes and therefore am in no postion to judge anything you do or say.

I have only ever wanted you to get better. I hope you know that.

[sacred-chao.livejournal.com]

Uh,yeah. That bit about "Don't you fucking DARE!" was real aand visceral and you frightened the fuck out of me and a lot of people with that last post. What we really didn't want to do was do the verbal equivalent of patting you on the head and telling you not to be silly. You're a grownup and if you make a decision that makes us upset, it's still not our decision and I'm not going to do thing one but support you in every way I can. I'm also going to be making suggestions about talking to someone about some kind of counselling to help you make as objective a decision as possible but that's not something to throw out there as a first response. What I and I suspect most people really did NOT want to do is be condescending, patronising or otherwise tell you that we know what you're going through better than you. If you really were at the end of your ability to deal then that would suck hugely but I can't judge that. Whe someone you give a shit about tells you that they're ready to die there really isn't a good response. In any case, there's a fuckton of people who will do whatever we can to make things and least crapful as possible. Hugs to you and sorry for saying dumb things.